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The year is 1990.<\/strong> I\u2018m a 20-year-old college student. A fellow member of the FSU Jazz-Pop Ensemble asks me to sing a song in his rock band\u2019s upcoming gig. I spend weeks practicing but it is not meant to be – a few days before the show I get waylaid by the flu. The band guy suspects I\u2018m flaking – he has no idea how badly I want to be on that stage. I always think of this song as the one that got away: Message in a Bottle….<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A couple of weeks ago, I turned 50. How can it be? What a year of reflection with this big birthday. In 2020 the highs and lows seem more extreme. The world is upside down and me with it. New place, new circumstances, new decade. I am officially mid-century modern, as evidenced by these birthday pics below. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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    Sometimes I don\u2019t have much energy to create. As an introvert, you\u2019d think I\u2019d be thriving with all this alone time. But even introverts need connection. I am doing my best to participate in this partially-unraveled world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

    Thus the muse channeled this song back from the depths. I heeded the call and got to work. It\u2019s tough. I don\u2019t have a rock band, so this a cappella version will have to do. Even though I wince at the timing and pitch imperfections, it\u2019s probably still better than I could\u2019ve pulled off at 20. I am so much more ME now. I\u2019m 50! 😘<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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